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November 12th, 2007



 Happy Birthday Trina!!!!

happy b-day chickie, hope you have a great day. as usual with my gifts, its going to be late. i really need to work on sending things out on time. i hope you like what i got you though. 

October 9th, 2007

Another Night Alone

Eyelids heavy
It’s that time again
I sigh looking at the bed
Still no one to share it with
I get under the covers
Tossing and turning for hours
Finally settling for sleeping on my side
Staring at the darkened wall, feeling sorry for myself
I wrap my arms around myself
Wishing, pretending they are yours
I close my eyes
Pretending to feel you at my back
I smile, giving into the dream, yet again
Dreams of how it could be
Wonderful dreams
Until I wake the next morning
And realize I’ve spent another night alone

October 3rd, 2007

another rant

today fucking sucked. i feel competely useless in my math class. its only the second week and im behind. i just dont understand the work. i planned on staying at the college until my 6 pm class, but couldnt. all i wanted to do was cry and if that happened i didnt want to be at school. so i called mom and she picked me up. that didnt help my mood much since all she did was complain about her husband. im so sick of my friends that are dating and they complain to me about their bf or gf. i mean yes im here for them, but it just like be happy you have someone. so what if your bf snores at night, so what if ur gf takes forever to get ready. BE HAPPY you have someone to share your life with. and as for a certain friend who is pregnant and wont talk about anything else, yes im happy for you, but give me a break. you couldnt see that i was crying the other day. even after i told you what was wrong you went on with what you were saying, not caring about how it made me feel. i have told a few of them that i cant handle their relationship issues, when it just makes me feel more lonely than i already am, but that doesnt seem to matter. i feel like im just the person they want to complain to , not talk with because of anything else. yes i am always their for my friends and like being there. im always there when i can be, even if it hurts me to listen. ive been incredibly lonely lately. yeah i have my family, but theres always something missing. i would love to have someone to come home to and tell them about my day and vice versa. a guy friend of mine told me his work schedule last week and it felt good. made me crave to have someone and have them do the same. being at school makes it hard as well. i see the couples there all happy, hugging, and kissing. it just makes me want to cry. it seems like all the guys that say they like me are far away. to top off all the shit tonights speech class was horrible. i was ready to just up and leave. we had to do a listening exercise by doing the telephone game. the instructor told one person a phrase and we had to pass it on to eachother whispering to see if it was the same message as it started out with when it got to the last person. well when it came to me i couldnt hear the girl who told me because of her really quiet whisper and because ppl were talking. i said i didnt hear any of what she said and the fucking teacher singled me out and said "well i guess we can see who isnt a very good listener" i mean wtf how the hell am i supposed to hear when there are ppl talking loud. so yeah i dont know i just want to give up, im tired of my life or rather lack of a life. i dont know whether ill have to drop out either because mom got her old job back which leaves me with no ride since gram cant leave billy here by himself. yeah its good she got her job back but again its going to be all about her and to hell with anyone else. as you can tell im in a self pitying mood *sighs* sorry

August 23rd, 2007


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August 22nd, 2007

so adorable

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August 19th, 2007



my meez


August 2nd, 2007

(no subject)

Your Birthdate: July 12

You are certain and confident when you choose to love someone.
Even though your romantic choices may be unconventional - you stand behind them.
Your friends never know you as well as a romantic partner does.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, and 30th of the month.

June 17th, 2007

What Tarot Card are You?


You are The High Priestess

Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

May 31st, 2007

The Ultimate Survey

1. Name: brandy

2. Nicknames: yoda, brandy bean

3. Birthday: 7/12/86

4. Zodiac sign: Cancer

5. Height: 5'1

6. Hair color: auburn

7. Eye color: blueish green

8. Ring size: no clue

9. Siblings: 3 half 3 step

10. Do you wear any tattoos: yes

11. How many tattoos: 1

12. Describe your tattoos:
chinese symbol for unique soul

13. Piercings: ear, nose and lip

14. Hobbies: The computer, writing, singing

15. Colors: black, red, blue, silver

16. Food: pizza i guess

17. Candy: dark chocolate milky way or twix

18. Type of cheese: provolone

19. Pizza toppings: pepperoni and ham

20. Milk: white and chocolate

21. Soda: pepsi

22. Tea: unsweetened

23. Salad dressings: ranch or french

24. Sandwich: eh

25. Cereals: life

26. Fruit: hard pears

27. Animal: cats

28. Vegetable: broccoli

29. Berry: strawberries

30. Muffins: blueberry

31. Cake: chocolate

32. Book: um... the outsiders

33. Movie: wizard of oz

34. Magazines: People

35. TV shows: Law & Order: SVU, law & order: ci, ghost whisperer, gh, house

36. Anime: inyuasha and naruto

37. Anime Character: saskai

38. Radio Station: the banana 105.5

39. Cartoon Character: um.. scooby doo

40. Website: jonathan knight.net, myspace.com, deviantart.com

41. Actor: nicolas cage, johnny depp

42. Actress: angelina jolie

43. Wrestlers: none

44. Music Groups: NKOTB, boyz II men, afi, linkin park, tlc, blaque, and many more

45. CD: Face The Music

46. Song: mrs. right, keep ya head up, questions

47. Music type: rock, pop, r&b, oldies, just everything

48. Day of the week: Friday

49. Month: July

50. Season: winter and fall

51. Holiday: uh dont have a fav

52. Shampoo: head and shoulders or lavender suave

53. Conditioner: lavender suave

54. Lucky numbers:12

55. Weather: rainy

56. Restaurant: denny's

57. TV channels: abc, animal planet, cartoon network, nbc,

58. Teacher: none

59. Weekend activity: Sleep

60. Sports to watch: none

61. Sports to play: cards (I know its not a real sport)

62. Flower: lilac

63. Tree: none

64. Guy's name: jonathan, quinlan

65. Girl's name: piper,

66. Board games: trivial pursuit

67. Party games: dunno

68. Video games: champions of norrath, baulders gate, resident evil

69. Fairy tale: none

*Have you ever*

70. Been on a Train: no

71. Been on a Plane: yes

72. Run into a wall: haha yes too many times

73. Made out with someone you loved: no

74. Smoked: yes

75. Been drunk: yes

76. Been high: yes

77. Kissed someone of the opposite sex: no

78. Kissed someone of the same sex: no

79. had cyber sex: no

80. Gotten engaged: no

81. Been rejected by a crush: yes

82. loved: yes

83. went swimming during a thunderstorm: yes

84. seen a tornado: no

85. made yourself cry to get out of trouble: yes

86. cried in public: no

87. cried over a movie: yes

88. fallen asleep in a movie theater: no

89. ridden a horse: no

90. farted and blamed it on someone else: no

91. had an embarrassing moment: yes

92. given someone a bath: yes

93. been home schooled: no

94. lost a valuable item: yes

95. bungee jumped: no

96. met a celebrity: no

97. ridden in a limo: no

98. gotten a cavity: no

99. shopped at Abercrombie and Fitch: no

100. made a prank call in the past: no

101. skipped school: yes

102. faked sick to get out of school: yes

103. purchased something that you knew didn't fit: yes

104. climbed a tree: yes

105. sprained anything: yes

106. passed out at a concert: no

107. made yourself pass out: no

108. been to Disney world: no

109. said I love you and meant it (not to a relative): yes

110. made a working model volcano at school (past or present): no thats too complicated for me

111. Made a clover leaf with your tongue: no

112. had a crush on someone and you found out they were already taken: yes

113. Had a threesome: no


114. What did you do yesterday: Stayed home

115. memory you miss the most: hmm..dont know

116. memory you want to forget: rather not say

117. A memory that makes you smile: taking care of michael when he was a baby, thinking of my grandfather, seing keara (my cat) after she was just born and watching her progress as she got older, seeing stormie (cat) be such a good momma

118. A memory that makes you sad: my grandfather dieing, having to give up my cats, my pet dieing.


119. Song you heard: keep ya head up- 2pac

120. cd you bought: pink- im not dead

121. thing you said: night

122. nail polish shade worn: some clear purpleish thing

123. person you thought about: the trinaness

124. time you showered: earlier

125. person who complimented you: dont remember

126. person to post a comment on your my space
page: anna i think

127. movie you saw on television:
the breakfast club

*At this moment*

128. what are you listening to:
The TV

129. what are you wearing:
jeans and a black tank

130. What are you thinking about:

131. What are you scared of the most:
the dark

132. How many people are on your friends list:
i dunno 40 something

133. Are you single, taken or crushing:
single and crushing

134. Who do you have a crush on your top friends list:

135. Name one word to describe your current crush:
um haha i dunno

*Future plans*

136. Occupation: childrens counselor

137. marriage site: no clue

138. honeymoon: no clue

139. vehicle: a jeep i dunno

140. what are you doing tomorrow: nothing interesting

*Do you believe in*

141. ghosts: yes

142. soul mates: sometimes

143. reincarnation: no clue

144. love at first sight: sometimes

145. karma: not really

146. love in general: sometimes

147. luck: eh not really

148. yourself: no comment


149. who was your first crush:
jonathan knight

150. who is your current crush:
um she knows

151. Who is your current celebrity crush:
jonathan knight

152. What is something you don't understand about the opposite sex: can't think of anything

153. On a scale of 1-10, how romantic are you:
no idea

154. First thing you notice about the opposite sex:
eyes, lips

155. what do you look for personality-wise:
confident, intelligent, honest, kind,

156. Biggest turn on: honesty

157. biggest turn off: Arrogance

158. the most romantic item you can think of: a note or letter written by that special someone

159. the most romantic thing that has happened to you: none

160. what would you wear on a date:
depends on where we would go

161. Is it right to flirt if you are taken:

162. is cyber cheating if you are taken:

163. are eyes the passageway to the soul:


164. mellow: relaxed

165. melancholy: sad

166. the perfect date: renting a movie or going out to see a movie then going back home for a good home cooked meal maybe going out to watch the stars (im bad at questions like this)

167. the perfect mate: A person that understands me

*One or the other*

168. coke/pepsi: pepsi

169. sprite/7-up: sprite

170. boxers/briefs: boxers

171. gold/silver: sterling silver

172. vanilla/chocolate: chocolate

173. flowers/candy: flowers

174. book/magazine: book

175. tv/radio: tv

176. glass half empty/half full: half empty

177. colored pencils/markers: colored pencils

178. coffee/tea: tea

179. sun/moon: moon

180. day/night: night

181. hot/cold: cold

182. dog/cat: cat

183. button/zipper: zipper

184. cotton/feather pillow: cotton

185. blue/purple: blue

186. plumber/trashman: huh? um neither

187. jeans/shorts: jeans

188. mechanical/regular pencil: mechanical

189. that 70's show/simpsons: neither

190. romeo/juliet: who cares they both died

191. romantic comedy/thriller: thriller

192. nsync/bsb:bsb

193. peanut butter/jelly: pb

194. waffles/pancakes: pancakes

195. letter/email: depends

196. florida/california: too hot neither

197. scotland/canada: scotland

198. pizza/burgers: pizza

199. hat/visor: neither

200. football/rugby: neither

201. iceskating/blading: neither

202. movie at home/in theater: home

*First thing that comes to mind*

203. yellow: too bright

204. red lipstick: eh

205. socks: ankle length or toe socks

206. cowtipping: red neck Olympics

207. moulin rouge: ick nicole kidman

208. harry potter: whoo draco and snape

209. sexy:jonathan

210. blackberry: jam

211. rose: gram

212. rooster: thingy-a-doodle-do

213. hot: food

214. whipped cream: *dirty thoughts*

215. lollipops: sucking lol

216. dreams: good ones i hope

217. love: unpredictable

218. guys: oi

219. girls: oi again

220. south park: boring

221. boy bands: nkotb

222. penguins: cute

223. thingys: huh

224. junk mail: ARG!

225. dairy: stomach ache

226. pizza: okies

227. vitamin: yuck!

228. pie: mmmm......

229. thong: not on guys please

*Are you*

230. happy: not right now

231. sad: not right now

232. gothic: ive been called gothic

233. crazy: yes

234. messy: yes

235. mad: not right now

236. slacker: sometimes

237. nerd: haha no more of a dork

238. bookworm: kind of

239. jock: no

240. preppy: no

241. selfish: sometimes

242. giving: yes

243. calm: sometimes

244. peaceful: eh i guess sometimes

245. mellow: yes

246. eccentric: i dunno

247. caring: yes

248. loyal: yes

249. colorful: yes

250: artistic: yes

251. moody: always


252. What size is your bed: full size

253. what color crayon would you be if you could only pick one color: black, i could write on anything haha

254. how long does it take you to shower:
45 min to an hour i think

255. what does your screename mean:
its my initials

256. who do you trust the most:

257. what's something you can't live without:
my music

258. what time did you fall asleep:
whenever i get tired

259. do you know what 69 means:
*rolls eyes* yes

260. how about 143: nope

261. can you live without a microwave: no

262. what is a good trait about yourself: honest

263. what do you always think about: my future

264. what is your opinion on love: unpredictable

265. best thing anyone has ever told you: no clue

266. what is your reaction to someone telling you that you are hot: disbelieving

267. If you wrote a book, what would it be about:

268. longest crush lasted: 14 years (sad i know)
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