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May 22nd, 2007

college/ driving

so i start college in a little over a month (june 25) and i'm terrified. i know it has to be done and a very small part of me is excited. every time i think of it though i lose my breath. it isn't as bad as it was before though. when i would think of it before it was like my chest was caving in and i couldn't breath at all. that's pretty much how i get when i think of the future too, but i got off subject. i haven't had the orientation yet (june 20), but i'm pretty sure i will be taking my pre math, pre writing, and human relations classes. mom has already started and is taking some of the same classes, human relations for example. she's going to do something medical that has to do with x-rays.

my problem is the speech class. i cannot and mean CANNOT talk in front of people. it's a very sad sight to see when i do. i stutter, shake, have a barely audible voice. it's actually pretty pathetic. if it's one on one i do fine, but put me in front of a bunch of people, yeah i think not. i don't really know why i have to take that or math for that fact. how will math come into counseling? i should ask when i go to the orientation (makes mental note to self). again i got off the subject. i talked to mom about it and just thinking about it i got nervous and jittery. mom doesn't understand the anxiety i feel about it. she just told me not to let it bother me and that i have to do it no matter what. yeah thanks for the help mom.

as far as i know she (mom) will be taking me. she might have a job interview though and i asked if having a job will interfere with her school. she said yes so it will probably interfere with mine as well. she said i would have my license by the end of the summer, but nothing has come of that so far. summer hasn't started yet so maybe for once she will keep her promise. we have had plenty of time to get the hours in that i need, but i don't know. i think she likes the fact that i have to depend on her. i can't drive with maynard, although i'm sure he would be fine and not make me nervous or be impatient.i tried driving with moms ex husband, chris. he wanted me to lean back in the seat and kept telling me to relax, which i thought i was. the more he said relax though i tensed up. i just feel more comfortable with mom teaching me. gram is a huge hell no! she's a nervous driver and we tried to have her be in the car with me. that was a nightmare! she was nervous and it made me nervous, not good at all.

for my sleeping schedule or rather lack of one. i plan on june first to try and get to bed by at least midnight. i have to get up at, well i'm not sure what time billy gets up for summer school. i would like to be up at around 9ish. it depends on what time my classes start. i can't take any naps though, which is going to be the hardest part. i get so bored and rather than eat from boredom i usually just go to sleep.

all in all this has to be done if i ever want to move on and start my life. i know this, but it doesn't make it any easier. i complain about being cooped up all the time. i'm so used to it though, it's my comfort zone kind of. i need to learn to take risks and do things i'm not comfortable with, within reason. i think this journal entry is long enough though, so i'm off to bed. NIGHT!

April 22nd, 2007

6th grade

1. Who was your best friend in 6th grade?
christina and jonathan lopez, but they didn't go to my school and rebecca, terrence, jonathan allen,and lashane, they did

2. Who did you like?
jonathan knight and rebeccas older brother nick

3. What sport did you play?

4. Did you buy your lunch?
got free lunch

5. It's Friday night, where were you?
home or at jonathan's

6. Did you do your Homework?
i tried to

7. Skip school?
a few times

8. Did you get suspended/expelled?
yes for fighting

9. Can you sing the alma mater?
the who did what now?

10. What was your favorite class?
none we stayed in the same class all day and i hated the teacher

11. Your Schools Name?
walter french academy

12. Did you go to the dances?

13. If you could go back in time and do it all over would you?
probably, it was nice having that freedom and having friends

15. Embarrassing memory in 6th grade?
none that i can remember

16. Where did you go most often for lunch?
cafeteria always

17. What did you do on the last day of school?
nothing just had a summer

Odd Questions

What is your middle name?

What color is your mailbox?

Are you single?

Have you ever hit a deer?
i don't drive

Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home?
see above

What color is your room?

Do you have a small driveway?
it's a parking lot

Do you know anyone with the same ringtone as you?
don't have a cell phone

What do you do first in the morning?
roll over and go back to sleep

What brand is your printer?
no idea i don't use it

Do you enjoy fighting with people?
if im in the mood to fight

Is your hair naturally straight or curly?
curly, but it's so thick it doesn't curl unless it's wet

Who was your kindergarten teacher?
i don't remember the first one, but the second ones name was mrs. white

What is your ringtone?
don't have a cell

Are you taller than your mom?

What curse word do you say the most when your pissed?

Are you God?

Do you like someone?

Do you enjoy writing in colored pens?
i guess

Does anything hurt on your body right now?
my foots

Do you often cry during a movie?

Last phone call you received?
from mom

Last text message?
again no cell

Do you hate your life?
most of the time

Do you get mad easily?

What is your biggest pet peeve?
ppl who talk with food in their mouth

Are you cold?

Do any of your friends have kids?

Do you know anyone that is pregnant right now?

Who should pay on the first date?

How many years older than you are you willing to date?

Do you have any friends?
i think a few

Do you have any mean friends?

What is the ugliest color to wear in your opinion?
pink!!!!!!!! and anything bright

Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate?

Have you ever felt like driving off a cliff, seriously?
if i actually drove probably

Have you ever contemplated suicide?
too many times

Do you scratch your ears?

Who was the last person to hug you?
no idea i don't let ppl touch me

What brand are the pant/jeans you're wearing right now?
none i have black pj pants on

How tall are you?

What is the closest green object?
a notebook

If you were born the opposite sex, what would your parents name you?
mom didn't have a boys name picked out

Do you want to have kids?

What is the brightest color you're wearing?
a tiny bit of red

Who is the friend you have that you would never have expected to have?
no idea

Who do you hate the most right now?

What kind of car do you want?
a jeep maybe

What is your favorite video game?
baulders gate and champions of norrath

Do you like your dad?

Do you have any TV shows on DVD?
yes and i want more

Are you wearing make-up?
haha yeah right

Do you have a tattoo?
yes, i have one

Have you ever broken a pinata?

What time is it right now?

Do you know how to draw?
a little

Who loves orange soda?
kel loves orange soda

Who did you last IM?

Do you work a lot of hours?
no job yet

Where were you in the last 24 hours?
movies, store, moms

Who was the last person that called you?
wasn't this question already asked?

Is there anything you regret?
some things

Do you know where your family name originated from?
ireland and germany

Is there an animal that creeps you out?
i don't like spiders

What is your favorite color ON A CAR?

Do you use digital or film cameras?

Do you own an iPod?

Have you ever been on a charter bus?

Do you like going to water parks?
not really

April 14th, 2007

(no subject)

[x] I am shorter than 5'5"
[x] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I’ve had braces.
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have/had piercings in places besides my ears.
[x]I have/had freckles.

••Family//Home Life••
[x] I've sworn in front of my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[] Parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have/more kids someday.

[] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.

[x] I've gotten stitches.
[] Broken a bone.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I've had serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

[x] I've driven/riden over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to California.
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras.
[] I've been to the Caribbean.
[] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Hawaii

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[]I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've kissed more than one person in one day.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[]I've crashed a car
[] I've been skiing.
[x ] I've been in a musical.
[x] I've caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[x ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.

[x] I'm single.
[] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I love somebody.
[]I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[] I miss someone right now
[] I've been cheated on.
[] I'm getting divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.

[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[] I've been kissed in the rain.
[] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I've kissed a stranger.
[] I've kissed someone in the rain.

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x]I've snuck out.
[x] I've lied to my parents about where I am.
[] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game
[] I've ran a red light.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[] I've been arrested.

[x] I own over 5 rap CDs
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[] I own designer purses, costing over $100 a piece
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collect comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[] I own something from American Eagle

[x] can sing well.
[] stole tray from fast food resturant
[] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[] I don't kill bugs.
[] I sing in the shower.
[]I am a morning person.
[]I paid for my cell phone ring tone
[] I am a sports fanatic
[] twirl my hair.
[] I care about grammar.
[] I have "x"s in my screen name
[] I love Spam. ( The meat )
[] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[x]My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple or orange.
[x]I would wear pajamas to school.
[]I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[]I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x]I laugh at my own jokes.
[]I eat fast food weekly.
[x]I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x]I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[x]I like white chocolate.
[]I bite my nails.
[x]I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[] I'm good at remembering names.
[] I'm good at remembering dates.
[] I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers were totally honest

April 4th, 2007


i went to the baker college thing today and enrolled in the summer classes. i will have the orientation on june 20 and then classes start on june 25. i'm kinda excited i guess, but i'm more nervous. i had a mini panic attack while the woman, lindsay was giving me all the papers to sign. i guess i will have some of the same classes as mom. she started today. i need 101 credits to get my associates degree and 199 to get my bachelors so i might end up getting the bachelors degree as well. i wont go any further than that though and i haven't made up my mind completely about the other either. i was told it would only take 2 years, but lindsay said it would be more like 3 so blah. i wish i would have started before this then, but i couldn't. i had to take a placement test for reading, writing, and math. my reading was fine, but i have to be in a special math and writing class. i have to take a speech class to so GAH. i really hate talking in front of people, but it has to be done i guess, dammit.

April 2nd, 2007

55 questions

1. How old will you be in 10 months?

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
nothing really

4. Who was the last person you called?
i haven't called anyone

5. Who was the last person to call you?
no one has called

6. who was the last person to text you?
no one

7. Do you have any pets?
i wish

8. What were you doing at 12am last night?
watching tv

9. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
never were married

10. When is the last time you saw your mom?
earlier today

12. How many states have you lived in?

13. How many houses have you lived in?
too many to count

14. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?

15. Are you a social person?
not really

16. What was the last thing you drank?

17. What is your favorite ice cream?
mint chocolate chip

18. What is your favorite dessert?
ice cream

20. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
blackberry jam

21. Do you like coffee?

22. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
i refil the bottle a couple times a day sometimes

23. What do you drink in the morning?
water usually if im even up in the morning

24. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
used to sleeping alone so yeah alone it would be

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
closest to the wall

26. Do you know how to play poker?
yeah kinda

27. Do you like to cuddle?
not really, i don't like to be touched

28. Have you ever been to Canada?

29. Do you eat out or at home more often?
at home

30. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
my sister

32. Do you speak any other languages than English?
i can speak a little french

33. Have you ever gotten stitches?

34. Have you ever been in an ambulance?

35. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?

36. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?

37. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?

38. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
rather save it

39. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
earrings, lip ring, nose stud, and a ring

40. What is your favorite TV show?
House, gh, ghost whisperer

41. Can you roll your tongue?

42. Who is the funniest person you know?

43. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

45. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?

46. What is the color of your bedroom walls?

47. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
not always

48. Do you sleep with your closet doors opened or close?

49. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of

50. Do you flirt a lot?

51. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?

53. Can you change the oil on a car?
haven't tried

54. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
not yet cause i don't drive

55. Do you dance while driving in your car?
uh i don't drive

March 13th, 2007

jon funniness+ jordy got no flowers+ a fucked up laugh towards the end +jon in boxers = awesomeness clip

March 12th, 2007

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Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

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Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

March 11th, 2007

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What kind of lover are you
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March 6th, 2007

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